I’m not sensing anything like that when I focus into your life, although, I did pick up some type of imbalance within you, maybe relating to pills. But I would be very careful about these feelings. These feelings can turn out to be self fulfilling prophesies. I remember Dale wrote an article about this which stood out in my mind. I just looked and it’s about a girl named vicki. You can see it here:
https://www.lifeleap.org/positive-thinking-doesnt-work/
I would take whatever steps you needed to change that deep feeling within you. There is training here, the Mastery Program, which you can use. You might find something else. But you can control it. Don’t let it eat away at you like cancer until it actually manifests into something. Also, on the physical level, don’t be shy about learning to defend yourself. You don’t have to be a victim.