I always get so sad when people walk out of my life. Even when they shouldn’t be there in the first place. I noticed that I will even beg toxic people back just because I am so sad that they don’t see how awesome I really am.
Toxic is toxic. Toxic, among other things, means never seeing the value in anyone. It means living like a mentally dull opportunistic animal. It’s not you. It’s them. As long as you create that environment for yourself you will be rejected time and time again. Take a class.
Do some community volunteer work where you met decent ambitious people. In short, change your environment and the people in it.