I am confused about my professional direction and life direction. I have been working extremely hard for the last 12 years to make a living as a fiction writer, put everything on the line but failed. I also tried to build a successful professional careeer and failed. Same for marriage and relationships. I guess I was not good enough or lucky enough. I would like to know what could be the direction where I could be most successful financially and otherwise, while also happy. In the past I made money doing various jobs but they were not happy money. I am very ambitious though middle age and no longer full of the drive I once had. I am a bit tired of life and disappointed about myself. I hope to redeem myself in the second act of my life. Not sure what to expect from this community, if there are Real seers here or just well intended amateurs. I can read tarot cards, iching, etc but none of this has helped me. Some timea I asked myself if it even hurt. Some people say it brings bad luck Thank you in advance!