Hey Nicole,
You are so active on the forum and I want to encourage you! But I don’t think I have good advice. Maybe someone who is further along in the program s here will be more helpful for us.
I also have had a string of bad relationships. I am very scared of being alone–so I just keep jumping into new relationships instead of giving myself space to grow.
Of course in my case even just running along–I think I am learning a lot about how to be comfortable being alone and who I am as a person. I think it is easier to find a partner when we have inner strength and confidence…
So I think your LMP program is probably a good way to find yourself. And if you aren’t confident about the relationship it is probably a great first step in figuring out what you do want…
Try to enjoy the journey. I have to remind myself to do that too.