There’s nothing you can do about the fact that you have saved nothing. Whether you saved or not, it’s obvious you need to leave. Worry about the money, career,education later, etc later. Go to where you are safe. If you go to your home first and get help and go somewhere else later, so be it. Just don’t leave your kids where they can’t be harmed. Stay with them at all times and all of you with someone else that can protect you. Worry about the other stuff later. If you are worried about “torture” then your sole priority is getting away from him. When you think and worry about all the other things you distract yourself and dig yourself and your children in a deeper, darker hole. If you don’t take action, it will worsen. You have a responsibility to your children and their safety first and foremost, NOW. (do you realize it’s been almost a year since you first signed up to this forum? Please don’t let more precious time slip away)