If you do make it, it will not be a matter of fate. It will be because the two of you work hard at repairing the damage done. Right now, the big priority I see is getting through the big wall that is there when the two of your are together. Something needs to be done, probably on your part, to open up the communication again. Both of you have to stop being pouty and take steps to reconnect again. I trip out of town feels like a good thing to do, even if you don’t spend a lot of money. Also, you have a lot of psychic/spiritual development potential and it seems you are very curious about this, where not everybody is. I encourage you to go with this.