@Corina
Active 6 years, 10 months agoName: Corina
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I’m going to take your advice. I’m going to give it time. Give him space. To know what he really wants. Even though it’s pretty Obvious he wants To be single. You know even then if I waited and he turned me down at least I can say that was truly my last shot. Even then I think I will already be a so much stronger person. I can feel it. I feel good things coming to me. For my career, my happiness, the only thing missing is him.
Thank you Chish. My biggest fear is that he is going to find somebody else. I don’t think he will be ready to move on that fast honestly though because he might be afraid of getting hurt again. So I will give it time, but my instincts tell me too much time will not have a good outcome. Chish the thing is I already did everything to try to save the relationship. like everything. The only thing I didn’t give it was time. I’ll wait To see the outcome. I’m just scared. Because I feel like In my heart I already gave everything my all. I don’t know if time will change his mind. His birthday is November 28 and mine is July 4 both in the year 1995. When I did a science like test it predicted that everything was just going to keep going down after this.
Things are pretty much ruined. My dad is very traditional. He’s angry because he trusted my ex to love me and take care of me. My mother is blaming me for the loss because of my behavior. I don’t think his family likes me at all to begin with. But believe me, after he started treating me horribly my eyes began to widen. I started to realize how awful I was. Now that he’s really gone we have fixed things and are on mutual terms. I told him I loved him before we stopped talking. He told me he would never forget me. He told me he would never forget me. He also told me he wants me to be happy and to focus on myself. It’s only been two days since I’ve been on here and I feel emotionally and spiritually happier. I’m not saying I’m moved on yet but I’m much more in a positive mood. The thing about me is that once I love I can’t stop loving. I want to open up that path to him. I want to show him that I wasn’t a mistake. I want to prove him wrong. But I’m discouraged because I don’t think I’ll ever get that chance. I have literally tried everything to bring him back. You guys may say I’m too boy crazy and I am very young still but I’ve always knew what I wanted in life. The moment I met him I knew he was the one for me.
Chish. I thought about what you said and you are right. I need to be strong. I need to focus on myself little by little. The crazy thing is even though the psychic told me she saw no future or relationship in us. For some reason, I know that I love want to spend the rest of my life with him. I know he was the one who broke it off and right now the only thing I can do is just give it time. It’s just I don’t know if I can be patient. I’ve already thought things over and I’m taking things little by little. My first step began today. By cleaning the messy room I haven’t cleaned in forever. As stupid as it sounds, lol. It’s just how am I supposed to know when and where to begin with him again? How will I know ? In my heart I already feel Ready to make amends with him. To treat him the way he deserves to be. I just don’t know when h will be ready or if he will even let me in. This picture of us was just about two weeks ago. We were so happy. I think it feels forever for of me because even in that picture we still had disagreements. So it feels like we have been away from each other even longer.
Thank you so much Cathy. For sharing.
You are so wonderful and helpful Chish. As much as I love him, he has done some things to me I don’t know if I will ever be able to forget. The only thing that concerns me is how the psychic I spoke to told me that she doesn’t see us having a relationship. That he isn’t the one. You were right about me. I like to hold onto things. I can’t really put this past behind me because I know that he was everything I ever wanted. That it wasn’t just my fault. But both of our faults. He is bruised. He is hurt. He told me the other day that the reason he left me was because during our last argument I told him that he was only temporary. At that time I felt betrayed because of the things he did to me. The way he treated me for the past month was unbelieveable. I do love him. I do want to be with him. The thing is I don’t know how to get myself back to where we once were so happy. I don’t know how to reach out to him. Right now I am giving him space. Right now I am trying to focus on myself. But if I’m over here and he’s over there how can anything possibly happen ? Yesterday night I was trying to contact him with my soul. I tried to communicate with him through channeling, I don’t think it worked. But after I attempted I had a horrible dream. That he moved on. That he was happy. That he forgot about me. That was the worse nightmare. I don’t want him to forget me or us. The love that we once shared. My mind is set. I love him.
Thank you so much Chish. What you are saying is true. I did have behavioral issues as in like I liked to control him. The moment that I lost power I knew I had to change. It just sucks because it was already too late for that. He had already become a changed person. I don’t think he thinks or cares about me anymore. I learned to accept the truth that he’s over me. Hopefully that gives me a little more power.
