I sense you are having some doubts about your 4 year relationship? Also if you can get ahead financially? If you could secure a job that would meet your individual financial needs, this would help to boost your confidence. You would also feel more in a position to make decisions for yourself.
Your questions don’t contain a lot of information and it is difficult to provide a lot of insight. If you would like to provide more details we might be better able to help you.
Best wishes,
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