The future is not cut into stone. I’m sensing you might be coming across a little too needy. I suggest working on yourself, building your self esteem. Do more things that make you feel good about yourself. I see something about getting involved in the community, helping people, maybe something with a church. Once you are stronger from the inside out, my sense is that this person will be more likely to pursue you. If not, forget about them and find someone who is worth it.