by kitana57 » Mon May 17, 2010 2:07 pm
Hi again Kathy,
Thanks again. I just feel after all this time he still hasn't changed and that is why I hesitated because the past issues still linger in the back of my mind. Besides I figure it like this if he wanted contact with me he would have done so first (I thought that is why he sent the instant message, but I don't have a clue as to what his motivation for doing so was quite honestly). I thought when I received it the universe was kind of giving me the green light to give things another go around, but if I am being truly 100% honest with myself it would be going against all of my natural instincts, which basically thinks it's a bad idea. The one repeating feeling and thought that I keep getting is the past will repeat in the present and like you said before I don't think that is something I wish to revisit at this juncture in my life. I need more positive people and things around me right now and not another thing such as this to weigh me down. I guess I was kind of lonely and thus I wasn't thinking straight enough to make an informative decision. Sometimes it's hard to have a good heart because people do tend to take advantage of it, in all truth I can't wait to get away from all these negative things that are really blocking off all my paths to happiness right now, but first I must get use to the ideal of letting go of these ties that do truly bind me. Thank you for the much needed clarity:)